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snapcrackle reed [27 Jan 2011|11:36am]
as legend states, reed mccale was born on april 24th, 1990 with french on the tongue and a book in his hand. or no, maybe he had come from the womb already wearing an argyle sweatervest. the variations on this tale are endless. from day one, james and anna mccale strived to make the best out of their little boy. words like "lawyer" and "harvard" and "master's degree" swirled over baby reed's head, sinking in early when he wanted to do nothing more than wave his little fingers and poop himself. they took this as the go-ahead and their plans were kicked into motion.

money wasn't an issue in beacon hill, massachusetts, not to the son of a successful lawyer and trophy wife homemaker. special preschool, french lessons, honors courses, charm school. reed was raised to be the perfect gentleman, armed with a stunning vocabulary and impressive collection of pressed khaki pants. he'd conquered table manners, the french revolution, and how to make a chocolate souffle that wouldn't collapse. basically, his parents had successfully raised a socially retarded robot. private school was every man for himself (especially for the kid who had skipped a grade), and none of the kids on his street wanted to be friends with the weirdo. he had resigned himself to a life of textbooks and uniforms, it wasn't so bad. he had been encouraged to take music lessons, where reed learned just about every instrument under the sun. piano, guitar, bass, cello, horn. he'd never met an instrument he didn't like, and his fingers had the magic touch for music. but it was only a hobby, his parents would see to that.

reed had accepted the truth of his lonely life, until the summer before his sophomore year of high school. they were moving, a law firm that offered better pay and a bigger house (did they really need a bigger house?). either way, opportunity brought the mccales to longport, new jersey. reed was still locked away in the snooty grip of private school, but for the first time, he was meeting normal kids. next-door neighbor trevor was there to provide a crash course in "not being a dork", preparing reed for a world of having friends and not always being the smartest kid in the class. khakis became jeans, oxfords became t-shirts. reed went on a personal mission to educate himself. he threw himself whole-heartedly into hair dye, flatbrim hats, high-top sneakers.

maybe the most important part, the music. pop, country, hip-hop, r&b, metal. he traded away his tchaikovsky for good, old-fashioned rock and roll. the entire thing fascianted him. suddenly, reed didn't want to go to harvard. he didn't want to be a lawyer. he wanted this. he wanted to be in a band and tour the world. he just wanted to make music. his parents took less than amicably to the news. actually, take that back. this was an understatement. his parents freaked. the thirty-minute-screaming-and-crying-and-yelling-and-shouting-and-"you couldn't have become more of a disappointment" debacle was heart-warming. it was probably a bad time to tell them he was gay too.

and maybe, at the end of the day, he'd picked his music over his family. things certainly haven't been the same since reed "drifted from his goals". his dad won't speak to him, his mom is torn. they both don't love him nearly as much as they used to. they stopped coming to his piano recitals. stopped encouraging him, stopped doing much of anything involving him. it's almost as if they just crossed him out of their lives, out of their perfect plan. they pushed their baby boy out into the world to be a rockstar. and that's okay too. things will get better, he just has to give it time. he's actually doing what he wants for a change, and he's being himself for the first time in seventeen years. it's so much better than the sweatervests.
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[14 Aug 2010|08:56pm]
there was a time in my life when i could pinpoint exactly how everything was going to pan out. with enough comfortable familiarity under my belt, i had planned a reasonable timeline for my future. it wasn’t wishful thinking, it was objective fact. taking stock of the variables to draw an educated conclusion. there was career, girl, flat, dog. the points all made sense, i could have told anyone about it.

it was plain science.

anyone who thinks they can predict the future is lying. give it enough time and everything changes. you think, “i’ll adjust, things will still make sense.” but sometimes, they don’t anymore and instead of adapting to your new variables, you wind up staying constant. or maybe you’re the one that does all the changing, subtle shifts until the other components can’t even recognize you anymore.

i couldn’t tell you when everything started changing. some might say it was the filming, that closing a ten-year chapter in my life was bound to have its effects. but quite honestly, that would be a cop-out excuse. it was a planned end, which i can’t consider as a variable when its path had been set all along. there are more projects on the horizon, so it wasn’t like i suddenly became a bum. still an actor, just one trying to cut it in a post-potter world. it isn’t so easily explained away with the end of an era. people drift apart and come together. when the spare skirt or lipstick or any of the other feminine traces went missing, i adjusted to that too. mutual split or not, the differences shake you. it could very well just be an internal thing. i'm not very good with change, plain and simple. when i moved into my flat, i spent the first night on the phone with my mum for two hours. the walls felt too big, i was certain i would drown in the depths of my own freedom. but faced with these things, you realise that everything happens with the right destination in mind. when the results prove inconclusive, it’s time for a new experiment.

i am pattering on but the point is this: i’m beginning to catch on to the bigger picture. there was a reason that things turned out the way they did, why my perfectly planned future strayed in every possible way. all the variables might be changing but its nice to say that the end result, whatever it may be, looks promising. all of my decisions have led me to this exactly moment. screw the timeline, spontaneity just might be the best conclusion of all.
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